lots o stuff
It's cold, its wet, its windy, its raining, I got fuck all sleep last night - read most of ReMix by jon courtney grimwood instead.
I also tried to replace lost info due to my journada's death - so i had to type all stuff back in - i got all the phone numbers of my mobile phone - now i need addresses and birthdays and email and stuff from ppl to replace all my lost info - so email me your details :)
I really should set up an email address book and I wish this update journal window used vim really i do.
So it's cold and I'm sleep depped and I'm actually working, not really because i have to, its make work cos I'm bored and feel like doing something, so i'm poking the website for ecr - the template sucks - but i'm kind of stuck with the melb uni template and web guidelines, so i'm just cleaning it up as much as possible rather than changing the look of the site - and making it easier to make new pages and admin..
I'm also feeling kind of good - despite all that.
madi is making soup, I'm really looking forward to her moving down so i can eat madi cooking again. I booked a plane ticket for her and mikey the other day - mikey's work has crap restricted access, so he just gave me his credit card number.
I had to book Madi's ticket under her legal name, and had to put the prefix Mr in - it didn't give me a choice not to.. and i tell you it felt really weird - i think i'm getting the hang of this pronoun game, I mean madi has always been madigrrl to me anyway - but its always been 'he is madigrrl' rather than 'she is madigrrl' and when it gets right down to it, when you ignore gender as much as i do anyone - thats not so tricky to get used too. Of course it depends on how much madi will let me play dress-ups :)
This then leads to the other discussion wher ei think about all the various partners I've had, and how gender has never been an issue - they are all just ppl.... and as thats the case why do i suddenly find myself with a boy. And this one is definately a boy - he even claims to be a straight boy which is a bit of novelty - although thorfy says if he is sleeping with me he can't be straight :) I'm curious as to why suddenly this has happened - the whole 'Boy' thing - its not a pet name I've ever used before, and i've definately heard it used in ways i don't like, and i know it can offend others - its the whole possesive and objectifing thing and i'm not sure. But for me it's not any of those negative things - its just a nickname like tiggrr or honey or whatever.. my little pet name and it seems appropriate..
Also - i went to this bar the other nite - and they didn't have girls and boys written on the toilet door, just painted pink and blue - I then wandered into the blue one - being the closest before it struck me that the colours were symbolic.. CLub UK wanted me to choose between Sid and Nancy... i know which i preferred :)
Hmm..anyone up for an indepth discussion on gender, identity and perceptions?
Okay - this very short 4 line post somehow turned into a long one - it wasnt meant too... Current Mood: happy