November 18th, 2002


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This connection is too slow - this office is too cold.

I've spent a strange week of emotional ups and downs - but my boy has been there keeping me happy giving me something to hold on to - now he's gone back to canberra and i'm sad and grumpy.

I don't want to be here anymore, I want to be with him. I'm sick of waiting. The temptation to say fuck my job and just leave with him last nite was incredibly strong.

I've just sorted through 500+ work emails - I can see some of whats been done and hasn't been done in the week I was away - I've got a huge to-do list and don't even know were to start looking at fixing most problems. I can't do this job.

I want to be with my boy. He said last nite if i can't find a job by april, he will prolly come down here with me, but i don't want to wait even that long.

I think I got spoilt by having him for a week.

I want to go see my boss and say I want out of civeng.

Actually what I really want to do is go sit on the lawn in the sun and read.

More info on what i actually did over the last week coming soon - I've got 100+ LJ posts to catch up on first - damn this not reading thing.
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